I still can’t believe it. We’ve been waiting for this day for 18 months. And tomorrow we are finally, FINALLY (!) flying to Luxembourg to compete in the second largest culinary competition in the world. I’m so f*cking ready for this! WE are so f*cking ready for this! 

It’s been a rough year. I’ve kept telling myself that I have the energy, that I can do this, and this, and that, schedule everything with just seconds in margin. And many personal things that has happened during the year started to break me down mentally. Instead of taking care of myself, I put all the problems in a box in my head and put it away.

I started to work hard. Really hard. At work, after work, to nighttime. For ten months I’ve had a full time job, at the same time I trained daily with the Culinary Team, and also worked out a lot by myself. Gym, running, intervals, boxing, you name it. I worked extremely hard with minimal rest for a long period. 

The body started to talk. And it shut me down.

I started to understand what was happening just a couple of weeks ago. I burned out. I got really weak, and I’m still weak. Both mentally and physically. The first part, of admitting to yourself that you have to do something has been so tough. But I’ve gotten help and I have help. I know it’s a combination of broken self-esteem, the mental abuse, my inability to respect myself, the fact that I couldn’t set limits and let people walk right over me, the heavy workload combined with minimal recovery, my conflicts, my drive that I want to do everything at the same time and that I always allow everyone else to control me. 

I really love what I do, that’s why I never want to stop. But is it really worth giving it 300% every second of the day? Is it worth your health? Your physical abilities? Your mentality? Being sick right now, I’m telling you, is not fun at all. And I wish I started to listen to my body earlier.

Heeeey. Just wanted to check in and update real quick. This week I’ve literally just been working, training and running in repeat everyday. Kicking my ass so hard during the days and evenings that my sleeps at nights are sooo good. I even overslept two days hahah! Started to run with Adidas a couple of weeks ago and I’m really enjoying it. It’s a nice crew. Now I’m in a hurry to finish of the hours in the kitchen and then some Friday miles. Have an awesome weekend guys!

I just ran intervals in the hottest summer day weather in Sweden since...forever? It was 34C outside!! And I freaking love the burn. SO MUCH.

Hey guys. Monday has already passed by, I feel like the days go faster than lightning. Except for work and training for the Culinary World Cup this week I have plans to do a running session with the Adidas team, squeeze in some intervals and weight lifting, make some pastillage roses, go on an interesting meeting and all in between hug my little brother while he is here visiting. Here’s an outfit from last week too! 

No one is happier than me right now. Some people like diamond rings, some people like cars, I like bikes! Watch out everyone!

Enjoying summer in Sweden so much right now. 

Let me just talk about this burger I ate while I was in Gothenburg. I had some expectations before going there, my brother and his friends had been there once and they said that "It was freaking amazing."  And then two other friends recommended me to go there too. And I did. We came right on time just before they opened up for the day, but there were already so many people standing outside waiting to be seated. Luckily we already had booked a table. We ordered our burgers and while we were waiting we could see the burgers flying out from the kitchen, we started to get so hungry and just hoped that the next burgers were for us. A couple of minutes later, it came.