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Burned out.

It’s been a rough year. I’ve kept telling myself that I have the energy, that I can do this, and this, and that, schedule everything with just seconds in margin. And many personal things that has happened during the year started to break me down mentally. Instead of taking care of myself, I put all the problems in a box in my head and put it away.


I started to work hard. Really hard. At work, after work, to nighttime. For ten months I’ve had a full time job, at the same time I trained daily with the Culinary Team, and also worked out a lot by myself. Gym, running, intervals, boxing, you name it. I worked extremely hard with minimal rest for a long period. 


The body started to talk. And it shut me down.


I started to understand what was happening just a couple of weeks ago. I burned out. I got really weak, and I’m still weak. Both mentally and physically. The first part, of admitting to yourself that you have to do something has been so tough. But I’ve gotten help and I have help. I know it’s a combination of broken self-esteem, the mental abuse, my inability to respect myself, the fact that I couldn’t set limits and let people walk right over me, the heavy workload combined with minimal recovery, my conflicts, my drive that I want to do everything at the same time and that I always allow everyone else to control me. 


I really love what I do, that’s why I never want to stop. But is it really worth giving it 300% every second of the day? Is it worth your health? Your physical abilities? Your mentality? Being sick right now, I’m telling you, is not fun at all. And I wish I started to listen to my body earlier.






Sum up

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My brother and my mom was here in the beginning of August, the days go by so fast when they are here...

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Ate so much meat for dinner one of the days. It was an interesting experience!

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Been enjoying some warm nights on our balcony while I still can.

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New favorite shoes. Solarboost <3

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Mindblowing live show was happening last week, I’m still shocked. (Aquanauts).

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Ran the Midnight Run last weekend, the best 10km I’ve ever ran. It was so much FUN.

Mahogny

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Colors of the wind

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10k

Heeeey. Just wanted to check in and update real quick. This week I’ve literally just been working, training and running in repeat everyday. Kicking my ass so hard during the days and evenings that my sleeps at nights are sooo good. I even overslept two days hahah! Started to run with Adidas a couple of weeks ago and I’m really enjoying it. It’s a nice crew. Now I’m in a hurry to finish of the hours in the kitchen and then some Friday miles. Have an awesome weekend guys!

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Thursday miles

I just ran intervals in the hottest summer day weather in Sweden since...forever? It was 34C outside!! And I freaking love the burn. SO MUCH.

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One of a kind

Hey guys. Monday has already passed by, I feel like the days go faster than lightning. Except for work and training for the Culinary World Cup this week I have plans to do a running session with the Adidas team, squeeze in some intervals and weight lifting, make some pastillage roses, go on an interesting meeting and all in between hug my little brother while he is here visiting. Here’s an outfit from last week too! 

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Kringla

No one is happier than me right now. Some people like diamond rings, some people like cars, I like bikes! Watch out everyone!

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Big sky country

Enjoying summer in Sweden so much right now. 

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16/7

Long day made short; Early breakfast before heading to (first day after vacay!) work, made 4000 buns, trained for Culinary World Cup, went to the gym and woke up my muscles, ran the fastest I could home, took a cold shower and now I’m sitting here writing this post and transferring some photos to my hardwire. Bed is calling soon, have a goodnight everyone out there.

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Wera Stockholm

My absolutely favorite jacket right now.

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The Barn

Let me just talk about this burger I ate while I was in Gothenburg. I had some expectations before going there, my brother and his friends had been there once and they said that "It was freaking amazing."  And then two other friends recommended me to go there too. And I did. We came right on time just before they opened up for the day, but there were already so many people standing outside waiting to be seated. Luckily we already had booked a table. We ordered our burgers and while we were waiting we could see the burgers flying out from the kitchen, we started to get so hungry and just hoped that the next burgers were for us. A couple of minutes later, it came.

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Right in front of me I got a perfect stacked burger (reminded my of the Krusty Crabs burger on Spongebob.)

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It looked so simple, but let me tell you. It was simple PLUS A LOT MORE!

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Look at it! First bite, "omg", second bite "OMG!, third bite "This is the best burger I’ve ever had!". So juicy, creamy, flavorful, PERFECT. No doubt in the world that this is my favorite burger so far.

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Perfect soft bun that catched all the juice, amazing maple syrup glazed braided (!) bacon, perfect pickled red onions and the mayo - SHIIIIIET! I loved everything about this. GO HERE if you are passing by Gothenburg. Just do it.

Smoke

Hey guys. One day in Stockholm has already passed by, and oh my, I really missed it. Feels good to be home again. To make a long story short (if you haven’t followed me on other social media’s I’ve updated on my stories) the trip took five extra hours long... FIVE! I arrived in the middle of the night/morning to Stockholm. At least it was an adventure! "It’s not the destination, it’s the journey." Will update furthe more today so check in later. And have a good day!

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Bloody hell

Ed Sheeran. He was why I went to the other coast side of Sweden. It was my first "real" concert, and it was magical! Amazing, fenomenal, perfect and everything in between. LOVED IT. I’m going to sleep like the happiest baby tonight. Iiiiiiih, goodnight.

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Sleepyhead

Goodmorning everybody! Took my luggage at 3AM this morning and hopped on the train that’s going to Gothenburg. What I’m doing there? I’ll let you know soon.

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Went gold digging this morning

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Projects

I talk a lot about the Culinary World Cup in November. I’m thinking about how important it is to be nice to yourself when a project is happening in your life. You know when you’re in a period when you have a project. That’s really important for you. It can be like working really hard to have money for something, an important exam, rehab training after an injury, or like now, the gold medal in November.

Projects takes energy and time, and it has the ability to devour your whole self. When this happens I know it’s so important  to take care of yourself. To not push yourself so freaking hard. To not keep up with this project at the same time when you want to have the perfect clean house - be the perfect sister, daughter and girlfriend - gym and train six times a week.

I’ve noticed myself how busy I am. I have together with thirteen other people one goal. We are in the middle of it and I have really hard time to focus on something else. That’s why I let go of everything else in my life (like that I rarely talk and see my friends, once a year if we’re lucky). Now these days I will try to relax from the thoughts of the competition and hug my little brother a lot!

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Sparkling vacation pictures

Good morning. Sitting at a café eating my soy yoghurt and blueberries while waiting for my bus to go home to see my family. Vacation. It’s hard to relax when you’re constantly thinking of the competition in November, how to perfect the dishes, and of course, gold. I’m scrolling through all the pictures on different social media’s and everything looks so perfect. But there’s so much in between all the sparkling vacation pictures. My only expectations right now is to have some quality time with my family and closest friends, nothing else. I think you should too, enjoy your vacation with not too high expectations. Okay?

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The little things

Got a dinasour as a "table number" at a breakfast place this morning. Thought it was unique and cute!

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Oats with cloudberries and golden milk with a crazy, fun and caring friend. Oh yeah, and the croissant with coffee mascarpone and pistachio (she misread and didn’t know it was coffee flavored, and she doesn’t like coffee. So we basically only ate the croissant itself.) The oats was BOMB though!

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